Tired of almost everything...

Hello my friends...

Welcome to this new post at my lame blog... Many excuse for being, for such a long time, absent people... Thing is that my life is becoming somehow busier than ever before... But I will find a way in the end... I always do! :)

NOTE: This post is made without any structure, without any notes, without any layout... It is, somehow,a  strange post with strange thoughts from an even more stranger...

From June till now, a lot of things occured... First of all, I bought a guitar... Even if I was a singer in 2-3 bands during my early years, I never had the thirst to learn how to play a guitar. Now, this thing is over... I have a cool guitar and I learn how to rock :) I am not still an expert, as I am practicing with my bitch (my guitar :)  for around 6 months but I assure you that I can play some songs... Now maybe it is time, to also start composing something... I always wanted to compose some rock songs... As for the genre? Well, it will depend on my mood each time... Sometimes it will be more punkie, sometimes more rocky (not stallone :), sometimes more stoner-y... I will see... Thing is that after a lot of years I found something that really makes me happy and does not make me bored no matter how much time I gra-ga-gra-ga! :)

The other thing that never bored me is somehow my CPC... Ok! This is somewhat a lie... I quitted some years ago my activity for the scene but I returned back, as I wrote down in another post... Anyway, the thing is that I love my CPC, I always did... But somehow I feel a bit "naked"... The whole scene is somewhat sleeping :( Few productions, few activity, few newcomers... The two cool projects I worked for them, "Split Space" and "A Step Beyond... the step above", are always getting postponed and postponed and postoned... You know, coders might be bored to link all the stuff, to write some new code, but they should never forget that other people strived to produce some graphics or to compose a tune... This so fucking selfish behaviour sometimes makes me really angry... But anger is ok... It shows that you are alive, you are not a sleepy animal... After the anger-stage, the sadness-stage comes along... And it is the worse... But after the worst part, here comes the best part which is called egoism... Not egoism to behave like an elegant-elite-bitch... But egoism to improve my little self, to become better and of course to show to someones that doing something is not that hard as they try to make it seem... So, I started again to read like crazy assembly, I am trying to understand the inner-side of CPC. I think that I walk at the correct path... Afterall, I always had the basics of that language but somehow the lack of practice didn't made me really accomplished... Now I try more, I feel much more mature to learn something and to finally produce something... OK! I am somehow strict with myself... I helped a friend (John) to revive a cool online mag for our CPC (CPC Oxygen) but the feeling of the real machine is somehow missing... If you wanna have a look at it, check http://cpc-live.com and read it :)

So, after all this hobby-talking, it is time to continue with the worst thing that I do in order to earn some money... MY FUCKING JOB! I will be straight to the core and I really do not care... In multi-international companies there is no way of exlpoitation... Somehow, you get stuck in the middle of shit... One could easily ask "Find another job" or "Quit man"... Thing is that I can not... I am planning to leave from Greece and go and live abroad (Holland or Sweden) and without money I can not fulfill my plans. In addition, I live seperately from my parents 'cause I like the independent style of life... So, till summer, that I will quit for sure, I will somehow make a little patience... I am not quite sure that I will achieve the goal of my plan (to stay here till summer) but the lust for staying abroad makes me strong, even if I hate nearly everyone here... FUCK! This is maybe the most honest sentence that I wrote till now :) 

Another topic now... I am sick and tired of all those 40-50-60 years old people that keep saying that "You, the new generation does not have a clue of what are you fighting/resisting/protesting"... LIKE YOU KNOW, YOU FUCKING BASTARDS!!!! Look your lives! What you did??? You are the major reason why this country is sunking and sunking and sunking... With your apathy and self-coverance, you destroyed everything... You just care for your small selves, for the 1000 euros to take as a salary from your job eventhough you work around 12 to 14 hours a day. What you did fuckers? Made the banks richer? Made your loans bigger? Made your tongue huge by licking every politician in order to take something??? You know what??? You all suck! Because you, the 40-50-60 yo people, lost something that you claim to have... PRIDE!!! and that never comes back! Now, shut your fucking mouth about our ignorance, about our rights. We must fight, we must resist, we must protest... We do not want you with us, but stop 'polluting' our mind with your nosense beliefs. Shut your mouth as you always did, and leave us the hell alone... To be more specific, by fighting/protesting/resisting, I do not support molotov coctails, bombs, rocks and deaths... I support the right to manifestate for something that for others is standard... 

So, I will end this post with some messages to all....

.:.Take Care.:.

.:.Trust Yourself.:.

.:.Never Fake.:.  

we speak dudes,

voxfreax 

ps. Sorry for the bad language, sorry about the layout... I had to write those things down 'cause I somehow felt like I am going to explode... 

Space Split is coming men (+women :)!

OK, let's go again... Last time I posted a preview picture from my forthcoming slide show... But I stopped to work on it for now... Not for ever, of course, but for some time 'cause I started already another project... As I wrote in my previous post, I am a man of his word (and actually, I finished the army-guy screen...). The thing is that Snake and I are working in a very prototype project, in my opinion. To give you a sniff, I really like the retro games and "Space Invaders" was a really bang-bang game...So, one night Tomas came with an idea to make a slide show of "Space Invaders". But do not expect nothing less than huge pixels made with split rasters :). After all, I am talking about CPC my friends...

Anyways, I asked Tomas to make a fucking intro in order not to be just a simple slideshow but to have a bit of demomaking spirit inside... He found the idea nice and I started to paint a small screen related to the game... So, this post was written just to show you a screen (Psile gia sena mwri malakia na poume :)

Don't start to criticize me bad from the beginning... Imagine that every CPC designer has to "fight" with some really huge pixels and he has to choose from a variety of 27 colors. Here I use mode 0, which means that 16 colors only can be displayed in the screen. And most important, a CPC designer has to work pixel per pixel. We are speaking about 8-bit machines people... :)
Anyways, there are still a lot of stuff to be made... After all, this screen was designed during a weekend, so it's not that perfect... It's just an alien inside an U.F.O. :) But I believe I have designed my idea so well :P. You see, I wanted to make a kinda funny screen, to look like a cartoon type screen. To conclude, I have started to work in some things that will also be added, like stars and a logo, but they have to be designed much better... But I will keep working... I love producing for CPC even if the computer has died commercially from 1992. It lives inside my heart and I am happy that I am NOT the only one! :) CPC scene is great! :)
So, I must leave you... I have also to go to my job tomorrow...
But before I must say that I am so fucking excited about this co-production with my friend Tomas :) I am sure that the final result will be great!

...'till next time... ...take care...
Mitsos aka voXfReaX (x-Odium)

Man of his word...

Hello once again... As I wrote you at my previous post, voXfReaX is revived... So, I will give you my first NOT totally completed screen (I'm quite sure that I am going to put a background in it and maybe make the colors much more clear...) that is going to be published in my forthcoming production... You see, I am a man of his words... I told you so :). Some details regarding the screen now... The picture was originally made by a guy named Mike back in '06. I found it at the net and I bled my eyes in order to became a nice copy... After all, I just was watching a nice screen and the decision was to make the same on CPC. It is made in mode 1 (that means only 4 colors available at the same time) but I must add that screen's color palette is from a plus machine (meaning 4 colors out of 4096 colors available). A big thanx to the emulators available as I do not own a plus machine, but I will in the near future hopefully:). Anyways, hope you'll enjoy it....

Now..... click, click, click at the picture to see it really large...

...'till next time... take care....

Mitsos aka voXfReaX (x-Odium)

Small things... Big loves... Hard jobs...

OK. This is another post at my blog in such a short-period. Yes, I am out of the army, I have a DSL connection at my house, I have some time free ('cause now I also have a job to earn some euros), I enjoy life much more than the previous year, I hang around much more with my girlfriend... My life is getting better and better... But you know, some old loves can not be forgotten... No matter how many years might pass, no matter how technology is involving, I have to admit one tiny thing... I own a PC just to keep up to date with society-life, to keep contact with some friends that are far away from Athens or Stylida (my hometown) or even from abroad. But, the thing is that my first computer was an Amstrad CPC 6128 with a colour monitor and I have been following the scene for more than 16-17 years... It's a quite big period, if you consider that I am 25! In case you never were able to see a CPC I will show you a pic...

Yeah man!!! This is pure technology!!! No fucking virus to threat your hardware, no cracks to be download in order to play a game, no problem if you turn it off suddenly, no problem with anything... Well, almost anything as my floppy drive always had a fucking problem...
Anyway, the thing is that from 2006 I am back to the great CPC scene. I am in a french group (called Revival). As I have been "dead" for some years (I left CPC scene back in 2000) I returned in order to revive a hobby that was somehow "sleeping" for so long...
I have drawn some stuff for some participations (like &2007 or Croco Chanel 4) that were never used by the way, I have already some other stuff almost done (like graphics and some musics) and the thing is that I am back in business... :)
You know, I do not have a feeling that CPC will conquer the world again as it did back in the 90s but some feelings maintain for this fucking computer...
Anyways, I am not going to write more... If anyone wants to find out more about CPC, I am willing to help him/her. That's for sure...
But I must also solve your query about the title of this post... I know, I am not such a good writer but anyways... The title shows that I am working (and working a lot!!!) for my future productions. I already have some screens ready for a new great CPC slideshow... I will publish some here also, at my blog, and who knows? Maybe someone will like to participate in the CPC scene...
So, I getting back to work... I want to make my idea as soon as possible real and visible to you and to every CPC freak out there....

'Till next time friends.... Take care!

Mitsos aka voXfReaX (x-Odium)

ps. By the way, if someone owns a CPC6128 plus and he/she wants to earn some money from it, I am willing to buy it... Logical prices only... I am not that crazy!!!

No days to count... Man, I am fucking free!!!

It's not a lie my friends... I'm done with this shit after all. After 12 months of dirtiness, no sleep, no proper food, no life in general, I am revived!!! I earned the paper that indicates that I have no further obligations for the fabulous, the amazing Greek army! I can now do whatever I want without any restrictions, without anyone ordering me doing stupid things that have sense only for the permanent army personnel!!! (I did nothing and that's something that I really proud for my little self! I could resist and not be afraid!). So, with this post I would like to say a big "FUCK YOU ARMY!!!!".
I must admit that I will never forget a lot of nice times that I had with persons that were in the same situation... Maybe we will never meet again, maybe yes... Who knows? Anyways, I wish them all the best 'cause they deserve it... After all, they made my "journey" better and much more pleasant...
See you soon my friends....
Signing off....

Mitsos aka voXfReaX (x-Odium)


ps. Live the punk way of life....

Four months left... (or 118 days still to go...)

OK! Long time that I've been absent from my blog... Apologies dudes... The thing is that I am making all my army-duty so far away from my home and the lack of internet makes it really impossible to keep updating my stuff.
So, some time passed. I've been living at the borders for so long... :) It's OK! I like the people there, even though I hate wearing the stupid army uniforms... I have the chance to meet places that I don't know if I will be able to visit in my life again... But, who knows???
After all, I am finishing... and I will never come back (at army) for sure....
Some photos and I'm done... I have to enjoy life now... I must go out... Still 10 days left :):)
Have fun people and remember... What does not kill you, makes you stronger!!!

... 'till May...

Take care

voxy 

Counting my last moments....

Back to work again... I have to say to all of you that my days of freedom are almost finishing. In the 8th of May, I will join the fabulous (:P) Greek army. It's like an obligation for every male Greek. Despite that I was feeling ready and really didn't care at all during the past months (even days), today I feel a little bit confused. Maybe one year is not so much, but this can't change that a year of my life will be wasted guarding the borders. Anyway, this post is more like an excuse-finder 'cause I do not know when I will be able again to update my blog. But whenever I will have some free time, I will look my blog... Feel free to leave your comments (adding a comment cost you 10 euros... hahaha! No malakes, it's free!).
So, I leave you for now... I have to hunt some bears somewhere next to Skopje and Bulgaria.
Drink a beer for me sometime... I wish you all the best...

Mitsos aka voXfReaX aka Odium

ps. Do not forget.... Kick out the jams muthafuckas!!! Rock on!

Memories or photos? Maybe both is better!!

OK... After not updating my blog for such a long time, I am back. This time with better mood, with no sign of angriness like the last time I uploaded something in my blog ;)… Now, I feel better people… As I promised you, I will show you some photos of my great trip. I flied from Athens to Berlin, then to Barcelona to meet some good old friends from my Erasmus at Amsterdam (Miquelito! Charming Mitsos to Mik the Greek!! haha!) and also another good friend from Greece (Toli fasi burra!! :D:D:D)… In this part I want to say a big sorry from Barbara that I didn’t call her but during the second day of my staying at Barcelona, gastroenteritis fucked me up. I am sorry Barbie… Next time for sure! You have my word!

After Barcelona I flied straight to Granada to meet a good friend. I was so happy to see his fucking face, Manolico (Te quiero mucho hermano… Un abrazo fuerte malakazo!). Great city with also a great monument, Alhambra…After 5 nights at Granada, we (I made this trip with my girlfriend) took bus to visit Madrid. To tell you the truth, I didn’t like too much Madrid. This city reminds me a lot of Athens, maybe that’s why. Too much traffic people! Anyway, I had the chance to see also some other friends that I missed them through these years, Dani and Marta. Anyway, I think I speak too much. I stop immediately. Now continue and see the pictures…

Berlin

Barcelona

Granada

Madrid

Ok. Uf! Lot of work to choose some photos. Anyway, hope you like them all! See you soon, I hope!

Mitsos aka voXfReaX aka Odium

Am I crazy? Are you talking to me? ...Still???

Hi again people.... Here is the article that I told you in my first post..... Any comments are welcome.... See you soon....

Crazy thoughts from a crazy man of a crazy country...

Hi people. Here’s Odium. I will be your crazy guide in this piece of words. These words will not contain anything relative for our CPC but just thoughts that cross my mind sometimes. So, if you are willing to read my thoughts please do, you are truly welcome. Otherwise, I will not care at all if anyone won’t reach until the last line of this article. But I will be really happy even if only one person will lose some time by reading it. I should start...

In the 18^th of February, I became 24 years old. Fuck! 24 years old with nothing really different to happen in my life... Maybe, it’s because of my country’s mentality. A country that is best on just how to “kill” its “children”. But for sure, the esteem of willingness is not lacking from my soul.... If this esteem dies, then I will not have any difference from a dead person or a “new Greek”. But it’s like a bet with me, that even if the world will stop turning around one day, I will never stop dreaming. It’s the only that will never steal from me. The feeling of freedom, the feeling of equality, the feeling of respect, the feeling of loves that dreaming give to a common person like me. A dream that gives me life, makes me happy and able to smile, even sometimes alone, without caring if the persons next to me are thinking that I am crazy.

As long as I could remember my life, everyone was only interested on how we will beat the Turkish, on how we will manage to get along with our life without caring about any other person, on how to become enough envy when someone is getting along with his/hers life well, on how the fans of Olympiakos will hit the fans of PAOK when they get at Athens or the exact opposite when Olympiakos fans are traveling at Thessaloniki....

And of course, police and fucking swat forces have any right for violence if you manifest for your rights...Anything is acceptable by these fucking bastards, including throwing expired “smoke producers” (sorry, I do not know the exact word, but I am sure you get the message) to anyone, without an excuse... Hitting people that maybe they reach the seventh decade of their life because they are ordered to do so by someone that was voted by the Greek community.

Fuck! My country is in the limits of getting in a circle of destruction that, maybe, the falling will never stop. Maybe you do not care at all about all these crazy things, especially if you leave in France, Germany, England or I don’t even know where the fuck else. But maybe someone is feeling so “castrated” like I do. After all, we are all victims of the European strategy. The degree of impact just differs.

I am not, by nature, a pessimistic personality. I am, was and will be, believing in a wise phrase that my father told me... Strive for your life and life will not turn its back to you... I still believe this phrase. I have as a clue my father’s life. A man that began his life with nothing but achieved what he wanted more. A family with members able to think, not like animals or “new Greeks” (It’s the same.... new-Greek=animal). Maybe his example gives more strength to keep willing, to keep dreaming. The thing is that as far as you are growing old, you “gather” more experiences resulting to think more and more mature. Personally, I have no big expectations for myself. I do not know personally any minister or any celebrity to make my life easier. I am not also gay to become a television star in a night. In order to become more evident, I have no problems with the gay community. Everyone has the right to be anything he/she wants. I have three friends (one gay and two lesbians) that are cool. I mention this just because I don’t want to be misunderstood by some people that they are part of a gay community. But, I hate this fucking mentality of the Greek television. In order to get five or ten minutes of popularity, you must be a gay speaking of his/hers new spa or pet. While at the streets there are people fighting for basic ideals like the improvement of our lame education, of our sordid health system, of our quality of life.

But TV does not stop here at Greece.... If anyone wants to promote his/hers fascist beliefs, then he/ she is absolutely welcome. EVERY GREEK MUST LIVE WITH THE FEAR OF A TURKISH INVASION FOR EVER!!! Greeks are superior to the other Balkans, Greece is the first country at everything, Greece is the number one and all the others are trying to copy our culture..... FUCK THEM!!! I’m not saying that all Greeks believe this, but I assure you that there are a lot believing these shits. If we were something, this belongs at the past. Maybe the ancients knew something more. After all, they were the first to create a democratically regime. New-Greeks have no right to claim pride for any creation.... After all, what we have done during the last century or during the running one? Oh, sorry.... I forgot.... We won Eurovision, Euro 2004 and Euro basket at 2005. I also celebrated these successes but the celebrations must stop sometime.... After all, what can provide a trophy to me? A joke between a foreigner and me? What else? Hmmmm.... Fuck! I forgot again.... NATIONAL PRIDE!!! How could I miss this? I must be filled with pride because my country won a game... All TV stations will remember 1821 (year when the Greeks fought against the Turkish after being slaves for 400 years) and 1940 (when Greeks fought against the fascist coalition of Germany and Italy) and compare it with the game. Anyway, I feel like stopping and continue further with this article... I can write down about our national pride till infinity....

In 2000, I quitted CPC. At that time, I was like a geek, studying a lot in order to succeed at a university. With the grades I had, I was able to study at a university in Athens. So, I left my hometown at the age of 17 and moved at Athens. Now, in 2007, after 7 years of staying alone and after 2 years that I finally took my degree, I wonder why. I am not saying that the university gave me nothing, the opposite, a lot, but for what? To work like a slave, to get my eyes popped out every day in front of a laptop, in order to get a salary that I can not even afford to pay the rent and the bills of my house.

To help you understand the model of our economy I will give you an example. It’s easy. Gather 10 people. 2 must gain the money that all people should gain from their works and the other 8 will live in poverty, or in the limits of poverty. Great model, don’t you think?

Great country, no? Absolutely!!! This is the fabulous Greek Model of Economy!!!

I am not an anarchist or a terrorist or an anti-gay, by the way. I hate both communists and fascists (they are the same for me.... Same shit), I love the place that I was raised and I am proud of what I am able to think, because I had close to me people that were able to think and look everything from a different point of view than the fucking TV stations were and are forcing all the other people to believe. But I hate the stupid new-Greek wave. The wave that protects all people who know a politician or the mother of the grandfather of a politician...

On the other side, I must also add some good words for my country that I really believe...OK! Greece is great for holidays! Only for fucking holidays people. Going in a Greek island that is not so trendy is like a paradise. And be sure that you will meet people that really worth it. It’s maybe the only thing that I like in my country. Some Greeks make you understand the values of hospitality, of the sharing, of the friendship.

Anyway, after my return from Amsterdam, where I stayed for 8 months, I took a decision. My decision was that I am not going to stay in this country for more than 4-5 years. One of them is more like an obligation to my great country as I am forced to serve the famous, the fabulous Greek army. The other three or four years, I do not really know... Maybe I will focus in things that make me feel better and freer than the previous ones. Also I have to gather some money.....

I must admit that all of those words were written with anger but not with lust. Maybe because I also was beaten as I was participated at a manifestation for the educational system without any reason. I am just feeling that out there, and not only me is feeling this esteem. I am sure that there are people thinking the same out there and trying to guarantee their rights against the brutality of any government.

After all, you were warned that these words are crazy, written from a crazy man like me.

See you in another article, not as serious as this one, for sure.

Odium

Note: Odium is my CPC nickname...

A post to welcome you....

People, I welcome you to the first post of my blog. I've been planning to write down some things for so long but I was kind of tired. I hope you understand. It's been a lot of things that make me really tired.... First of all, I work. Second, I have driving lessons. Third, I am active at CPC again (the first home computer ever and maybe the best one) and fourth, I am flying abroad at Sunday and I have a lot of laundry, ironing and finally packing (still no laundry!!!). I will go to Berlin for one week and later I am planning on going to Barcelona, Granada and Madrid to see again some really familiar faces.... I was waiting this time for so long, around 3 years, since my last trip abroad (Amsterdam for 8 months!!!). At that time I came to Greece after 8 months of nice and easy living. What a time!!! Maybe the most relaxing time of my life... I will update soon my blog from now on... Maybe I will post also an article of the forthcoming issue of Ovation (a CPC disk-magazine) that I wrote yesterday.... TOTAL ANGER!!! In any circumstances, I will post some news and photos also from the trip.... Till the next time....

Mitsos aka voXfReaX